myself
2003-09-17, 8:48 p.m.
yoz!
as usual, feeling weird now. it's a mixture of happiness and sadness...theoretically it is impossible, maybe it's possible in this case due to my holding back of feelings...*smilez*
it's already the fourth term of Secondary three...frankly, it so doesn't feel like i'm in sec. 3...it had seemed so high up...but now? i've reached.
basically, i'm here to talk about how time has flown by, truly without me realizing it. so much has changed, there's been broken promises, and i had realized that i can play with penknives again without feeling guilty...^^...that is such a nice thought! i've made many new friends, acquaintance...more specifically, i would say i have close friends, yet when you say that, you get the idea that they share most things...thoughts and feelings...but i guess, with me, it's a one-way road, i'm always ready to lend a listening ear...always, no matter how heck-care i appear to be...i'll always listen, but if you want advice, gotta wait till i'm in the mood, or i'll give you either no-advice or crap advice...either one will probably not help you...=P
i know there are people who are willing to lend a listening ear to me...but i'm me, and that means i don't confide...sometimes i really want to...but plainly...it's not in my blood. guess i'll just stay the way i am...ain't that bad...just that i do need an outlet at times...and i haven't found it...but...who cares? =P...i mean, i am living...for now, at least. ^^
gotta go bathe now...a little late i know...but me lazy =P. this is a long entry...after so long...^^ anywayz, takkairez pple...no matter what you do...who you are...takkairez...cyaz...byez!
Sapphire^^
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