sadness
2004-01-02, 7:13 p.m.
hiz..
here to complain..i guess..cried last night..when colz asked me why..i said..fears..fears of losing friends due to changes..expected changes..but didn't expect it to be so painful..because of that..smsed colz at about 12+..he probably slept at around 2 or so..did smsed guoshiong too..guess..all i want to say is..THX! for being there..for..everything..^^
feeling so much better now..maybe it's juz the timing..but it seemed to have suddenly hit me..when the word "orientation" tomorrow..was said..it seems like my friends are suddenly going to a different world..leaving me here..in my own world.."abandon" wouldn't be an appropriate word here..but i think..it kinda describes how i feel..like i've said last night..
Things won't, and never will be..the same again.
that phrase hurts alot..much as there are many things i don't particularly like about my life..but this one thing that i've always found stable..is going to change..now i know why some people don't like changes..
people come..people go..every time a door closes, another door opens..thus..every time a door opens..another closes..i look forward to JC life..but that means..something else changes in my life..
whenever a change occur..it has its negative and of course..positive effects..i ought to juz be positive and look there..but..for now..i don't see..any signs of positive-ness in this change..so don't blame me for being pessimistic..
think i'll end up crying again tonight..i juz wanna cry it over..let it all out..and it'll pass..i hope..^^ for now..i shall go play gb..alone..=P cyaz! byez! odaijini!
Sapphire~~
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