life....
2004-07-21, 9:48 p.m.
ello..
juz changed my desktop to this scene of the rain outside hogwarts..aka..harry potter. =X
led me to think..why do i like fantasy that much..i like being thrown in a fantasy world..where stuff outta the ordinary happens..it's juz different i guess..i want a life that is different. where things are different each day..ok. i should stop using "different". lolz.
sometimes..when i'm shown a scene like the one as my desktop..there's this really mistycal. ooops. i meant..mystical feeling. =X (sorry! inside joke.) it's this andrenaline rush, no i do not feel the top of the world..i feel..i'm above the world. hehe. it's quite unexplainable. so i shan't even attempt. =X
i was gonna call pple to disturb..until one of the convos went onto the topic of justifying one's existence. i crapped alot..guess juz said what came to mind..and frankly..i like what i said. =X hehe. and after the convo..all i want to do..is to submerge myself in this feeling..where it's juz mystifying..probably because..when you actually think abt your own life as a whole..all the normal petty small matters juz shrinks..till they're imperceptible..and that feels good..we are always tied down because of small things, problems that crop up in life..and when you actually think abt it..suddenly..it's alot more meaningful..not juz are you not tied down..it's juz..a small stepping stone in this crossing..perhaps what i've said..is but incoherant ramblings..oh..and the best thing that came outta that whole convo..i organized my thoughts. those times are when i feel the most clear-headed..ask me deep questions. i'll answer them all..studies..(heh?!) lalala~ oh..and i kinda like it when pple tell me their troubles..keeps me from pondering too much abt my own. =D
have i rambled enough? yeah..i think so. hehe. shall stop here! cyaz!
Sapphire
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